More, please… again and again.

A while back, I wrote about More.

I was very serious when I considered how twisted it is to always want more, and I was very sincere in my decision to just stop it.  Just stop it already!  How difficult is that?  Just. don’t. do. it.

I really tried.  But my lust/yearning/desire for More won’t let (me) go.

I am still longing for “it.”  And totally justifying it to myself.  It makes so much sense to strive for More, to seek it out.  Why not have another piece of cake?  It’s good, it’s been given, I worked for it, I did not overeat.  What on earth could be wrong with that? Absolutely nothing! Until not having it makes me totally discontent with my Now, makes me blind to the fact that Enough is lovely.

It’s a tough one to swallow.

And I don’t know how to get around it.  Nor do I know how to get through to the other side.

Well, since truth must be told, I do know how, I just don’t like it.

The Enough mindset on the other side of Discontent comes with a simple choice of grace-discipline.  The discipline of accepting the grace given.  Repeated a million times.  Or two, or three, or ten.  Until it replaces my habit of yearning for More and becomes my new heavenly habit–the joy of Content.

The discipline of grace might translate in stepping away from the table, or turning my eyes away from what I think I want more of.

This obedience of grace received might translate in speaking to the face in the mirror sternly, or running into the moment with fullness of joy.

This choice of grace ingested might translate into refusing to look for the More that might come and instead savoring the Now, breathing deep and tasting fully what’s there, so that I don’t feel like I need more of “it.”

“The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want,” is turning into

“The Lord is my Shepherd, I refuse to want.”

It works beautifully.  I don’t think God minds.

Counting One Thousand Gifts with Ann

#57 The Joy of Enough

#56 The Victory of Contentment

#55 One Bite of Cheesecake

#54 The Awareness of Grace

linking up with Alabaster Jar, State of the HeartSeedlings in StoneGraceful, Gratituesday, Women Living Well and Play dates with God

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20 comments

  1. I “refuse” to want…I should try that version, too. 🙂 All week I’ve been praying about resting in “enough: I have enough, I am enough, because HE is enough.

    Thanks, Barbara!

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  2. Hmmm…

    No, I definitely want more!

    My current discipline focus is not on minimizing the want, but rather on amplifying and directing the want…becoming more intentional in managing my competing desires.

    I want more of Christ! I want more of grace toward others! I want more wisdom and insight! I want to reflect more of Christ’s glory!

    And as other lesser desires compete with these, I want less of those…so I can have more of my deepest desires.

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  3. Yes, the monster of more…I think it is hard since we live in a world where we are bombarded with lies of how we need this and that…I recently am on a sugar challenge my family started (not me)…we all were challenged to only have ONE dessert a week and the duration is 6 months…if we cheat, which I and a few others have then we lose money which is our motivation, unfortunately. Now, we will all switch our desire to kill the sugar want monster with spending the money on something we want, but most likely don’t need. i am thankful though because I realize how much I don’t need so much sugar and I am okay with it. 🙂 Thank you for an awesome reminder of how being grateful and savoring now is the key to stick with the “Refuse” to want…I so can relate. Thank you!

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  4. In our present world, and especially our culture, there is SO MUCH available most of the time, and we have become so convinced we are worth it all all the time. Becoming more focused on the Lord and seeking HIS approval of the piles of “fruit” in our vision is really important. Your sharing is a good reminder.

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  5. My husband said to me yesterday that I was a wanting woman. I looked at him and he explained, you are always wanting something. Oh, how ashamed I felt. I admitted to him that this was sin in my life and would be praying to overcome this. Sometimes the “wants” seem so small or so necessary but then again it is just more wants.

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  6. Oh, Barbara, what wisdom! I am so walking this journey with you! You’ve learned some of the lessons I am learning, especially ones I started during our time of fasting back in March/April. Thank you for sharing your powerful insight and helping me along my path! I was blessed today, more than words can convey!
    Love,
    Michelle

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