A while back, I wrote about More.
I was very serious when I considered how twisted it is to always want more, and I was very sincere in my decision to just stop it. Just stop it already! How difficult is that? Just. don’t. do. it.
I really tried. But my lust/yearning/desire for More won’t let (me) go.
I am still longing for “it.” And totally justifying it to myself. It makes so much sense to strive for More, to seek it out. Why not have another piece of cake? It’s good, it’s been given, I worked for it, I did not overeat. What on earth could be wrong with that? Absolutely nothing! Until not having it makes me totally discontent with my Now, makes me blind to the fact that Enough is lovely.
It’s a tough one to swallow.
And I don’t know how to get around it. Nor do I know how to get through to the other side.
Well, since truth must be told, I do know how, I just don’t like it.
The Enough mindset on the other side of Discontent comes with a simple choice of grace-discipline. The discipline of accepting the grace given. Repeated a million times. Or two, or three, or ten. Until it replaces my habit of yearning for More and becomes my new heavenly habit–the joy of Content.
The discipline of grace might translate in stepping away from the table, or turning my eyes away from what I think I want more of.
This obedience of grace received might translate in speaking to the face in the mirror sternly, or running into the moment with fullness of joy.
This choice of grace ingested might translate into refusing to look for the More that might come and instead savoring the Now, breathing deep and tasting fully what’s there, so that I don’t feel like I need more of “it.”
“The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want,” is turning into
“The Lord is my Shepherd, I refuse to want.”
It works beautifully. I don’t think God minds.
Counting One Thousand Gifts with Ann
#56 The Victory of Contentment
#55 One Bite of Cheesecake
#54 The Awareness of Grace