I Don’t Wanna Go

Everything in me wants to stay home and dig into my book.  But He calls me.  Like He does every day.  It’s that time of day when God and I meet together and talk things out; when He fills me with the strength I need; when He straightens some of the crookedness in my soul, and He infuses me with Himself.

It’s the time I can’t breathe without.

But today, I just don’t wanna go. I am lazy. I don’t wanna lace my shoes, get in my car, drive to the spot where I park and then start walking up the hill and talk with Him.  It’s hot; I am tired, and my book is calling my name.

But I go.

Begrudgingly, I go.  I go because I know it’s the right thing to do, and I go because I would feel guilty otherwise.  Not very good motives, but I go anyway.  I show up.

And when I get there, He is waiting for me.

He takes me deep into the woods, one little step at a time, and He gently begins to wash my mind, and my heart, and even my soul with His sweet presence.

I cannot hold on to my pout.

My tiredness is swept away as He tells me of His love for me.

I drink Him in.

I breathe Him in.


His heart is filling me.  His life within awakens me.  And I can’t help but giggle like a school girl. I raise my hands to the sky and twirl and twirl and twirl until I am dizzy with joy.

It is well with my soul.

Cultivating Thankfulness with Ann Voskamp

#237 His unwillingness to let me go 

#236 Conquering a lazy spirit 

#235 The joy of reading a good book

#234 The pearls my husband gave me

Linking up with Play Dates with God, ExtraordinaryOYHT, GratiTuesday, Titus 2sdaySDGTell Me a Story, Hearts 4 Home and What Joy is Mine



  1. Oh, I love this Barbara. He is so faithful to be there for us when we are willing to “just show up.” Thanks for the encouragement this brings me to put on my shoes and at least show up.


  2. The heat is tiring… our weather has been so warm and humid the past couple of days and I’ve been dragging myself around to get daily chores completed. Yes, there are times when we don’t want to show up for QT, but oh so thankful when we do!


  3. we are neighbors at Jen’s…oh yes…sweet fellowship…calling us away to Himself…I have a quote today from a book called God Callings…speaking to this very thing. so glad you went…so glad your soul was refreshed…blessings to you~


  4. This so reminds me of meeting God at the pond where he continued to heal my heart. (the pond at the top of my blog and the reason I started the blog:) He met me there everytime, teaching me, loving me, speaking to my heart and sending me on my way back home stronger and stronger. #235-237 could be on my list too.
    So glad to be here 🙂


  5. I don’t go to such a lovely place, but the reason is the same. A month ago the Lord laid it on me to take a walk as soon as I am up and able to go. It’s through a neighborhood/area I’ve never really spent time in. BUT I don’t just walk — it’s a total of 3 miles — but it’s so I can pray, worship, praise, focus on Him. Sometimes He connects me to a person or a sign in a yard that indicates what’s going on. Unless something else kicks in in the morning, I really do take these walks.

    Today, I sounded like you, too. I was tired and thought I could put off the walk. THEN it dawned on me that the walk doesn’t have anything to do with just walking… it has to do with my worship and prayer time with/for Him. I basically said, “Oops! Yep, I’ll go.” And I did.

    AND IT WAS WORTH IT!!! [Even though it’s hot and dry and I come home sweating, sweating, and sweating some more.]


  6. Why, oh why do we struggle to spend time with the Lover of our souls? When every encounter with Him is sweet, and deep, and rich? When we come away empowered, filled up, sent out? It must be a work of the world, the flesh, and the devil. But thanks be to God that “greater is He that is in us than he that is in the world!” Thanks for sharing. Visiting today from Be Not Weary (www.lorihatcher.com).


  7. Barbara-bless your obedience, and that you moved to seek Him. He is glorified. I read, “And when I get there, He is waiting for me” and I wanted to dance.
    Peace and good to you.


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