They messed with me and cheated me and acted as though nothing was wrong. They robbed me and treated me like an idiot, thinking I wouldn’t see and react.

And my blood boils on the inside of me.  And I want to scream.  And hit someone. Hard. Or break something. How dare they? Don’t they know who they are dealing with? I’ll show them, I’ll…

But He would not let me.

Because it’s not about what I have or don’t have, what I lost or gained, how I was treated or not.  It’s about living as an alien in the world and being an ambassador to another Country that is my Home.

So I call upon the Lord that I might not sin with my mouth, my mind or my actions; that I might represent Him well in this situation.  And I feed myself with obedience instead of choosing to retaliate.

No, they really don’t know who they are dealing with. They probably think that they got away with it, and that I never noticed.

My flesh hates it.

I don’t want people to think I’m stupid.

But I choose to lay it all down at His feet. The anger, and the temptation for revenge, and the humiliation. I trade it all for peace with God.

So I look like a loser. But I won at the game of life.  My heart is not stained.  It’s good enough for me.

Cultivating Thankfulness with Ann Voskamp 

#257 Daily protection

#256 My sweet daughter-in-law

#254 Avocado Mousse

Linking up with Thriving Family, Tell Me a Story, What Joy is Mine, Graceful, A Mama’s StoryRediscovering Domesticity, ,Denise in BloomPlay DatesHeart Reflected and True Wine



  1. I am learning—sometimes still the hard way—that when I try to protect and defend myself and look out for “Number 1”, I am really saying with my actions that I don’t trust Him to take care of me. Sometimes He lets me make a mess of things so that I can see clearly how much better His way is. Thank you for the encouragement to press on in laying my life down at His feet!


  2. Wow, you did the right thing for sure. It’s always better to travel the higher rode. Right now we have a son running for an office in their small community. The fight is bad; but we keep reminding him stick with the issue and don’t fall prey to the attacks by the opponent. The post was a powerful one.


  3. Hmmmm. I needed to hear this too! Not long ago, I went stomping about in enemy territory to defend my honor and what I discovered that for every fire I thought I was stomping out, only resulted in scattered embers and starting 3 more. What a mess. I know now it’s just best to humble myself and let Him lift me up…and defend and protect me. To trust..that even in those moments, there is a greater good I can not see. To trust Him. But no doubt, it’s hard. Well done good and faithful servant. Your testimony is a victory played forward for my benefit tonight.


  4. I find myself in these types of situations too. I have to constantly remind myself to not let anger take control, but then find the same thing happens to me…I am silent. It passes and then He sheds light on the situation for me later, and I end up having compassion in the end. It’s a tough road, but those who endure to the end will have great Joy.


  5. I struggle with these things, too, Barbara. And more. Not getting recognition for a job I did; being cheated out of something that was rightfully mine; on and on.

    Trusting God for justice. And forgiveness. For all involved. I want to be more like Him, less like me….

    As you say, “My heart is not strained. It’s good enough for me.”


  6. It’s true, to trust that God is our advocate, defender, and justice-giver requires and act of the will that goes against everything our flesh wants to do. And therein is the faith walk. We walk by faith, not by sight. I’m visiting from Be Not Weary today, and glad I did. 🙂


  7. This was good for me to read today. I think my own losses from getting “cheated” and lied about are what had me down today. I feel like I have a fellow traveler in you, and that lifts me up. God will restore all that’s been cheated away from us, and then some, in His good eternal time. And those who do such things are the sick, sad ones to be pitied and prayed for. Thank you for this reminder and uplift!


  8. WOW thanks for sharing this at Tell Me a True Story. We have been cheated and stolen from and betrayed as well. When our beutiful hubcaps were stolen in the church parking lot, and we were very angry – – our friend said, don’t let them steal your hubcaps, – – GIVE them to em! It is difficult to be stepped on, but my mother always told me the verse that says, Vengence is MINE, and I will repay says the Lord. Oh my, those people that hurt you, had better look out!


  9. This is so . . alien! I loved your analogy of being an ambassador to an alien land. That’s exactly who we are and it’s only by His grace and mercy that we are able to live here with untainted hearts. Great post.


  10. I’m impressed. My face always shows EVERYTHING that’s running through my brain. I’ve often had people say, “Tell us what you really think, Joanne.” And I say, “I wasn’t going to say anything.” Then they say, “You don’t have to say it; it sits right on your face.” SOOOO maybe the Lord will turn me into a different woman. [My husband is very good at not showing expressions. He’s heard horrific things and doesn’t even blink an eye. That would NOT be me!] Hope your situation works out well and bless you for turning your heart, mind, soul, and spirit to our Lord first and foremost.


I would love to hear your reaction to this post.

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s