May 2013 Letter–Dear Scale

May 2013 Letter–Dear Scale,

I have allowed you to torment me long enough.You and I are starting a new relationship as of today. 

It wasn’t your fault, really. All you did was to be. To do what you were made to do. But somehow I have let you hold a ridiculous power over me the last thirty five years of my life. What a waste.  

No more.

socially constructed ideas of beauty

One good thing came out of your daily torment for way too many years. You taught me that I am truly ruled by what I choose to obey. And I l chose to let your number rule me. It determined what kind of a day I was going to have. Every. Single. Morning. Or a few times a day. I submitted all of my emotions, thoughts and actions to it. 

I sought my crown of affirmation from you, and along the way, I had to let go of so many other things that mattered so much more. Like going out with friends. Or spending time worshiping. Or enjoying life freely.

And no matter what, the number you gave me was never ever enough. Even when it was. 

You have determined my worth for way too long.

No more. I am taking back my mind. My body. My affections. My choices.

Thank you for all you have taught me.

Good bye forever,

Barbara


Cultivating Thankfulness with Ann

one thousand#607 A new sense of freedom

#608 The joy of obedience

#609 Holding an Iguana for the first time!

#610 Laying in a hammock in Cozumel

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24 comments

  1. You held an iguana? Wow, awesome! I loved where you said that the numbers determined what kind of day you would have.

    I have gained some weight and am trying to lose it so I can fit into my clothes again, lol! After my back injury and laying around but still eating the same (or maybe even more) well……things happened, lol!

    I do want to lose that weight, but I do understand how you can let those numbers rule you.

    Thanks so much for linking up to the “Making Your Home Sing Monday” linky party today! 😉

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  2. I hadn’t done it hardly at all for years. However, after my esophagus surgery a couple years ago, I hit the scale almost every day. BUT, if not, my constant phrase of life, my motto for eternity is “God is BIGGER!” As long as I don’t eat too much ice cream or piles of chocolate I can trust Him more than I can trust the scales!

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  3. I guess I view the scale more as my friend. The one who cheers me on, when I hit and maintain my goal weight, and who also chides me, when I’m undisciplined and put on a couple extra pounds. Over two years ago I began my journey to lose 25 lbs after my fourth child. A goal I am happy to say I accomplished. I remember how tired and blaaa I felt. Now I have so much more energy to chase my children. It’s great to be able to go skiing, swimming, hiking, and to the zoo with them. I’m sorry my deer friend the scale doesn’t share such a great relationship with you. Hopefully you will get along better in the future 🙂

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  4. Thank you for your joyful story about your scale at “Tell Me a Story.” I had to smile because the scale I have is my friend. It tells me that I ate too much yesterday and today I must watch portions and cut out some things. Just so we are not weighed in the balances and found wanting – – – we will be okay!

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  5. Good for you! Self love is a difficult thing sometimes. I’m struggling with that a little right now too, having put on more weight than I’m comfortable with. Keep it up because you are a fabulous person just the way you are! Stopping by from the blog hop. Have a great day!

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