When neither Sleep nor Food fixes It

Grumpy, pouty, not happy at all and wanting people to fill the void,

Grumpy, fidgety, not happy at all, and expecting food to fill the void,

Grumpy, sourpuss, not happy at all, and yearning for sleep to take me back to being me…

But sleep does not fix me, and food makes me feel worse, and people, they simply  can’t be what I need them to be right now.

And the mirror, it mocks me.

And the Lord calls to me. He says “come.” So I come, curled up on my little chair. And I wait.

And the Lord, He begins to speak to me.

He says that He is the victorious one. He, not I.

And He talks to me about the power of His blood. His, not mine.

And the strength of His presence. His, not mine.

And He reminds me that He is my umbrella. And that He knows how to shade me from the storms, and even the heat.  And I can’t be my own umbrella.

And the Lord, He gently shows me that I have been depending on me, myself and I. And how there is no grace there. And that is why I find myself so frustrated and lost.

And then, He says that He has never ever lost His way, and that it’s O.K. for me to just let myself come back to that place where grace carries me. Where love embraces me. Where fellowship feeds me.

And the Lord, He reminds me that His ways are always perfect.

Cultivating Thankfulness with Ann Voskamp

one thousand#731 Running errands with my husband

#732 Meeting my CSA farmer and visiting his farm

#733 His Word in my heart

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19 comments

  1. Your posts always bring me back to center and start my day off just as it should be. Thankful for your thoughts and words – thanks!
    Jane B

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  2. Perfect post for the way I’ve been feeling lately. Thank you for writing it so well – I need the reminder that it isn’t all about me, that I can allow grace to carry me, love to embrace me, and fellowship to feed me. True true true.

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  3. He definitely knows that what we need, and what we crave, is Him and Him alone. He loves us too much to let anything or anyone else satisfy. (Talking to myself!)

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  4. Beautiful post! Thanks for the reminder that He has never lost His way. As long as I am where He is, I am on track. I visited this morning from Mom’s The Word.
    Have a great Monday,
    Joanne

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  5. So many times we try to find peace with food and other things. I am incredibly guilty of this! Thank you Barbara for reminding me this morning that only our Lord can fill that void.

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