No desserts, nothing sweet for 40 days. And then lots of it on Easter day. Because we did something for Jesus and we felt so holy about it; we suffered, we sacrificed, and now we were rewarded. We were good and God was pleased with us.
That’s what You meant to me when I was a kid. But when I was all grown up, I revolted against You. Because You really send the wrong message. God is not looking for my “sacrifice,” is He? Jesus is the Sacrifice, the only sacrifice acceptable. Jesus did all of that for me. I simply need to receive it, right? Right.
So I threw You completely away, and I felt justified doing it. And I never taught my kids about You.
But when my oldest was all grown up and knitted his heart with fellow believers who quietly observed You for all the right reasons, my heart found itself unsettled. I don’t find You mentioned anywhere in the Scriptures. But neither is Christmas… And I started to wonder if my strong opposition to You is loathing of self-deprivation disguised in self-righteousness. I still don’t have a clear answer on that.
Last year, for the first time since my childhood, I secretly danced with You. I yielded to You. And You bore the delightful fruit of true hunger for more of God. No sense of pride for my own accomplishment, no pat on the back–rather, an awareness of God’s nearness, a growing joy because I am His and He is mine. And then, I remembered that we know the value of choices by their fruits.
Dear Lent, I have come to a conclusion concerning You: You can be good or bad; it depends on the ground you are being grown into.
Thank you for all that you are to me.
Cultivating Thankfulness with Ann Voskamp
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