Sometimes, I am “in the flow.”
Everything flows naturally. It’s not that it’s all easy; it’s more like it’s all the way it ought to be. I may be working hard, but I know that it’s all good, and I am productive, doing what I was born to do. I am at peace, right where I belong. And when I am there, I can breathe deeply, I live in the Now, I belly-laugh, I am full of Real.
The time is Now, and the place is Here.
But at times, life feels as though it’s just too difficult to put all the pieces together, and they just don’t fit with each other, no matter how hard I try. It’s not about disdain for hard work, or tiredness, or questions, because I am not afraid of work, or tiredness, or questions–I welcome them. It’s akin to a piece of writing that simply won’t write itself, even though my butt has been on the chair for hours. And I sense that I am trying to put random pieces of different puzzles together, and it just doesn’t make sense.
That’s when I wonder if maybe, it’s simply not supposed to fit. But that’s difficult for me, because I need for things to make sense, and I am not a quitter… yet those pieces of writing never get written, and those chunks of well-intentioned life never get lived.
I am learning to yield to God in these uncomfortable-I-know-something-just-isn’t-right-here moments where my head and my heart can’t find peace with each other. And He reminds me that He knows how to speak to my heart and to lead me in His way, and that He very well might be the One making me uncomfortable, because when it’s right, it’s right. And He reminds me that it’s okay to let go as long as I hold on to Him and let Him redirect me, because true life is all about yielding to Him.
Because with God, there is fullness of light. In His light I see light. And with God, the time is always Now, and the place is always Here. And if that’s not where I am, I might need to let go…
Cultivating Thankfulness with Ann Voskamp
#998 The joy of seeing a baby grow in the womb of a woman I love
#999 Finishing a thought-provoking book
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