Dear Monsters under my Bed,
You can be so scary at times.
I know I am all grown-up now, and grown-ups know that you really don’t exist and monsters under the bed are not for real, but you know, whether under my bed or not, there are monsters lurking all over my life, and they can be very, very scary.
You guys don’t always look like monsters; sometimes, you are like little creatures who lodge themselves inside my head and speak lies to me. You always want me to believe you, entertain you, invite you to stay a while. But if truth be told, I don’t like you very much. Actually, I hate you. A lot. Because you hurt me. A lot.
But in a way, I also like you at times, even though I know better–I’m a grown-up after all. I am not quite sure why you can be so enticing at time; is it because you give me a sense of importance? Or because you have a way of making yourself look so smart, intellectual, needed? I don’t always stand up to you, and you have won a few heart and mind battles. That’s when I hate you again with all of my strength.
You are such interesting creatures, feeding on my curiosity, growing on my yielding to you. You know exactly how to tear away at my confidence, my joy, my faith.
Over the years of my adult life, I have loved you too often and hated you not enough.
Today, I remember the truth that I told my little ones when they wondered about you guys lurking under the bed: it turns out that when you turn on the light, there are no monsters under the bed.
I am going to keep the light on from now on.
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