“Love does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs,” the Good Book says. And of course, I agree. One hundred percent.
Until yesterday, where my love level was put to the test.
Because of some circumstances, I was going to have to clean up someone else’s mess and the thought of it was humiliating, scary, nerve-wracking, and altogether very unpleasant. Nauseating kind of feeling, if you know what I mean. And every inch of me wanted to scream that I did not deserve this, that I did not make that mess. And every inch of my flesh wanted to run away. Because this thing I had to do, maybe it was going to kill me on the inside.
“Be more like Jesus,” they say. But they never tell you about the cost.
The cost in not letting any one know the cost to you. The cost in bearing the humiliation and the undeserved suffering in silence.
But God, He is awesome.
While I was at war within myself, He reminded me that He still knows the winds and waves. He gently reminded me of the cross on which His beloved Son hung to clean up my mess and how it had been humiliating, scary, nauseating for Him. And how He did not deserve it, and how it killed Him. On the inside and the outside. And that is was worth it.
And that I was worth it.
“Be more like Jesus,” they say. But they never tell you about the reward.
The reward of sweet fellowship with my Father who knows it all. The reward in the privilege of taking someone else’s pain and carrying it for them, and knowing your Father’s pleasure.
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