“I’ve long had vision problems,” she simply said. And my heart skipped a beat. Or two. And my world was turned upside down. Because in these six words, my vision was restored. Just like that.
I have no idea how God did that. But it was undeniable, and life-changing.
My vision problems had nothing to do with my eyes not being sharp enough. They had everything to do with my heart not living. Everything to do with not really looking. Seeing without noticing. Existing without living. Eating without tasting. Always thinking about the next thing and not enjoying the now.
My vision problems, they caused a deep longing for more, a sense of never having enough, a hole in my heart that simply kept increasing in emptiness.My vision problem, they choked the life out of me. Because they made me miss life altogether.
“I’ve long had vision problems,” she simply said. And in those few words, I understood that this had been my choice.
Not purposeful at first. Everyday life is busy, you know? We’ve got things to do, people to see… until we have nothing at all, because we filled the hours with what doesn’t matter, and we forget to live life as it unfolds itself in front of us.
And just as I made the choice to not see, I decided to see again. I am not sure why and how it can be that simple, but it was. I looked and saw the flowers in my yard, I heard the birds singing their hearts out, I became aware of my husband’s love for me, I was satisfied with the littles. And the deep longing for more? The sense of never having enough? The hole in my heart? They were gone.
Because I stopped missing life. Because I let it be.
Just like that.
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