The war rages on the inside, and weariness sets in. And it feels like it will take only one more little push for me to just give up forever.  Too tired to swim, too tired to fight the current, too tired to anything.

I don’t want to fight the river anymore. I’ll just give in, give up and be done.

But the River, it giggles at me. And to tell you the truth, I am a bit offended… Here I am, ready to give up on life, and life laughs at me?

“Let me tell you a story,” the River begins.  I am pouting, but I listen. What else can I do?

“There once was this little boy,” the River said, ” and it stood on my bank for a very long time, trying to figure out how to get to the other side. I was pretty wild that day, and it wasn’t going to be easy for him. He tried just about anything ; he tried to swim across, but my current made him drift where he did not want to go. He tried to yell at me, but I would not respond. He tried to walk across me on a large piece of wood, but that did not work either. Eventually, he actually fell into me. After fighting me off for a few minutes, he let go and let me carry him. And guess what? I gently carried him to the other side. Not quite where he thought he wanted to land, but he got there.”

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The River stopped talking for a while.  I held my breath.

“If you let go of control,” the River continued, “pressure disappears.”

I exhale, my mind filled with Yeahbuts. Easier said than done.

“Rivers are supposed to carry people,” the River said with a smile. “Our job is to give life wherever we go, to water, nourish, strengthen. And we know how to do it. Why are you fighting me?”

Sometimes, I link up with any or all of these wonderful writers: Hearts 4 Home,SDG, Hearts Reflected, WLW, EOA, Things I can’t say, Growing Home,Play Dates with God, Monday Musings, Hear it on Sunday,Inspire Me Monday, Tell me a Story, The Better Mom, a Mama’s Story, Into the Word, In and Around Mondays,OYHT, gratituesday,Titus2Tuesdays,Extraordinay,Lessons from Ivy,Denise in Bloom, Sweet Blessings, Faith Filled Friday,Finding Joy,WholeHearted Home, Mom’s the Word, Reclaiming a Redeemed Life, Still Saturday. Wildcrafting Wednesdays, WFMW, Tell His Story

 

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